Tired Content
And tired everything, really...
But mainly the content.
See, I realize that lately all I've been posting are closeups of jockstraps. and I'm kind of tired of that. But I've tried taking pix in thongs and bikinis and it still feels tired - the problem is not what I wear, but rather that I'm just taking the same photos over and over.
The same tired angles, same tired closeups.
Thus, I haven't posted anything.
I've genuinely considered getting a cheap room at a hotel, or something, just to try and shoot better content, as I still have family with me, but I just can't justify the expense (or the covid risk).
I'll just have to try and get creative, and with halloween costume season around the corner, it should be a bit easier. Also, with the high temps finally going away, and stocking season nearing, I'll have an excuse to vary the wardrobe a bit.
In other news,
I'm revisiting my relationship with chastity.
Several weeks ago, JosieLynn, the maker of the cherrykeeper cages, announced that they were working with the 3D printing company to begin producing cages in a smooth finish. This is the answer to my prayers, as I'm a big fan of their cages. However, it's been weeks without news, and the listings on the page haven't changed, so I'm not sure when (or even if) they'll see the light of day.
Regardless, throughout the summer, when 24/7 chastity was an impossibility, I decided to revisit my relationship with it, and I think that I'm going to make it even more casual than it already is. How am I going to do that, you ask? Easy: the old-fashioned way. I'm just not going to play with my bits down there.
And, yes, I can hear your disbelief, but bear with me. I promised myself that I would not cum or even touch myself down there at all throughout the month of August, and that I would be caged as much as I could...
And I succeeded.
It is true that as the days went on it became more and more difficult, but it was still easier to do, overall, than I anticipated.
It's honestly not that hard to not play with myself, anymore.
The really difficult part was trying to stay soft. Like, I'm at the point where a hot guy, shirtless, will make me drool; so if I see more than that, well, it's hard to not get hard. I still try my best, though.
Now, the really, truly, difficult part is knowing when to cum responsibly.
Because, see, here's the problem: when I go a long time without cummies I get really horny, and when I get really horny I make dumb financial decisions (like buying more dildos, or more jockstraps, or more thongs, or more lingerie, etc.), so, while I try and find ways to deal with this, it's important to remember that a quick cummy can save me a lot of money.
Now, you probably think that this means I do a lot of cummies and that this is the problem, but you'd be wrong, the problem is that I don't want to cum, you see? I much prefer being horny, needy, and denied, much like I'd prefer being caged 24/7. So I need to work on remembering to cum before buying anything.
Maybe I could set a cummy schedule for every two weeks, or something along those lines.
Honestly, this probably wouldn't be a problem if I had an owner, you know? Someone that would tell me: "no, you haven't earned that yet, faggot." But this is where we live right now.
Going back to the original point,
I think I'll be moving chastity from an "as often as possible" kind of thing to a "whenever I feel like it" deal. Granted, I feel like being caged all the time, but what this means is that I'm no longer under any pressure at all to make sacrifices to be caged. Why? Because I've learned that I don't really need it anymore (see above), and because I'm tired of wanting to be caged but not being able to because my bits disagreed with the cage again.
Now, as soon as the new smoothing process comes out for JosieLynn's cages, then I'll revisit this stance, but for the time being chastity is going to be a gift for myself - a special treat.
AT ANY RATE,
I do plan to participate in Locktober, during which I will endeavor to be locked as close to 24/7 as my body will allow. NOvember is a different story, however, and this may come as a disappointment, but at the moment I have no intention to participate.
In other, other news,
I've started working on "sexy men" wallpapers for my phone and ipad:
Now, I'm not sure why I decided to even try this, but I'm very glad that I did, because I love the backgrounds. I mean, it's not like I spend a lot of time on the home screen (I do keep the lock screen clear of sexy stuff...for now*), but when I do exit out an app, it's always a joy to find a hot guy*.
*A whole new closet...
I guess it's pretty official now, then: I'm gay.
Well, about as official as it can be with a pandemic still raging.
I'm telling you, as soon as it's over (and my introverted ass gets with the program) I'm going to make it 100% official.
I used to joke -and stop me if I've mentioned this before- that when I came out as trans and lesbian I jumped from one closet into another, because as soon as I was passable I went full stealth. I mean, from that point on it was nobody's business what I had in my pants, so I had no reason to tell anyone I was trans. Most people (I've been told) just thought I was either a bit tomboyish, or just weird (on account of being an introvert). So occasionally I found myself in the awkward spot of having to explain that I was trans - it was like coming out all over again.
Well now the number of closets has doubled. For one, I'm not really into women anymore (and for some reason I'm super happy about this? And I want to celebrate it? And be super gay??). On the other, we've been exploring gender together and I'm no longer sure what box I fit in. Genderqueer? Agender? Can femboy be promoted to full-fledged gender, please? So it's kinda weird, because some days I feel one end of the binary more than the other, and I truly do not know what to make of it.
Part of me wants to move far away and start over - tabula rasa - with a proper unisex name and just eschew gender altogether. (And, honestly, I might actually try doing just that for real in the next year or two.)
Regardless, the main closet here is liking men. I've been so loud about exclusively liking women over the years (really mostly out of necessity, because as much as I hate to admit it there's a fuckton of shady men out there that even now my horny gay ass wants nothing with) that I'm not sure how to tell people that I'm all about the men now (really mostly because then I'll have to find new ways to turn down those shady men). But I guess we don't have to cross that bridge until the pandemic is over, and who knows maybe finding a boyfriend might be the perfect excuse to come out again.
Pool Service
Finally, I want to end this post with my latest recurring fantasy. In this one I'm invited by one of my regular tops (I'm basically the town bicycle in my fantasies -and proud of it) to a pool party at his house, in which tops get to wear tight little speedos that show off their many inches, and bottoms have to wear jocks (for convenience). So, of course, I accept the invite and when I get there I'm the only one, out of like 20 people, wearing a jock. It's a bit intimidating at first but everyone's just hanging out and having a good time so I just jump in the pool and relax for a bit. Then, one of the tops starts chatting me up and it's not long before he asks me if he can have a go.
Of course, I don't say no. So we get out of the pool and I make myself comfortable -face down, ass up- on one of the outdoor couches. Then I feel it, his thick warm cock resting heavy on my ass, as he prepares to push his head inside me, I look up to find that all the other tops have taken notice and begun to crowd up around us - their speedos becoming tighter by the second. I lick my lips in anticipation, and with a low grunt his manhood penetrates me. Only a couple of inches at first, but he's so thick and heavy that I begin to lose myself with a moan, and with the next inch I close my eyes, drop my head back down, and give myself to him.
And that's all for now!!
Thank you for reading!~ <3
PS: if you have a pool and want a tight ass, dm me ;)
PPS: jk, lol........unless..?
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