The Gay Cuckold

A few nights ago, I dreamt that I was performing oral sex on a vagina (which belonged to a ciswoman). It wasn't for my pleasure, someone had ordered me to do it and as a good sissy I had to obey.

It wasn't great.

It wasn't a nightmare, either (at least not yet), but it was pretty unenjoyable for me.

It was a perfectly good vagina - nothing wrong with it at all - but it still felt wrong. I didn't like its taste, I didn't like, well, anything about it.

I still did a great job, and I managed to fake pleasure, but I was hoping to never go through it again.

I don't remember what happened afterwards, I know I got praised for "doing such a good job," but that's about it. Regardless, I'm happy I had this dream. It's my subconscious accepting that I'm a faggot, that I don't want women anymore, that what I want is cock. It reaffirms that my treatment is working. It's a wonderful thing.

Now, I'm still struggling with shifting my preferences when it comes to more emotional/romantic matters. Yes, physically speaking I prefer men, and I do check them out more often than women, but I still check women out. Granted, most of the time I check women out it's in a "wow, look at her figure, that dress looks really good on her, I want to look that good too," but it doesn't change the fact that I still find myself more romantically attracted to them than men. And this is one (pretty big) reason why the dream stuck with me. Sure, I really disliked performing oral sex on that woman, but what if I was emotionally attached to her? What if she was my girlfriend, or more?

This was a bit of a scary thought, at first, but then I thought: well, what if I was a cuckold?

What if I could date a ciswoman, be owned and controlled by one, and never have to engage with her sexually?

What if we could have a real man (or several) take care of her in that regard?

Maybe we could share and they could take care of me, too? Or at least they could leave me a little present inside of her?

Then I could have my cake and have someone else eat it, too!


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