Femboi Charlie

 I keep wanting to write things on here...   ... there's a lot I want to share. It is seldom that I make time to write anything at all, and just as common that I delete whatever I do write. Sometimes it boils down to everything coming across as nonsense, sometimes it's just best to not say some things, and sometimes there's just no point. This time, however, I want to write, so I write. I shall write an update, and it shan't be deleted (though it's been heavily edited). Here goes... Update on my 'gay shit': I continue to get gayer and gayer every day. I fantasize about men, I want a boyfriend really badly, I want t be covered in cum, and I only enjoy gay porn (yes, this includes sissies/traps/fembois/cds). Straight/lesbian (any porn with cis-women) continues to become even more irrelevant to me. * In fact a few weeks ago I tried watching some lesbian videos and found it about as stimulating as The Hobbit movie (sorry, Hobbit fans). Porn with trans women in...

I haven't posted in a while. Not a blog post, not a tweet, not a single lewd. Part of this is due to a lengthy journey of introspection, as I decide what I want my sissy future to look like. I'm torn between lots of different directions - part of me wants to try and become as androgynously boyish as possible, part of me wants to become as feminine as possible and eschew all pretense at masculinity, and another part of me doesn't know what the heck it wants. The appeal of the second should be obvious, and it's been my main goal for as long as I've known about transition. But the appeal of the first is the (well documented) result of my journey into sissification. I want to continue passing as a woman, to be sure, but I also want it to be unequivocally obvious to any sexual partner that I have boy parts/body. Like under all my hair, and clothes, and makeup, I hide my secret that I'm actually a boy. I want to be a "trap," if you will. I don't know how...